Of the men who went to explore the land, only Joshua son of Nun and Caleb son of Jephunneh survived. Numbers 14:38
Only the courageous among the advance party – Joshua and Caleb – entered the promised land. The rest focused on the size of the problem while Joshua and Caleb focused on the size of their God. As our church nears dangerous financial waters, I find I am among those focusing in the size of the problem. I would have been struck dead in the desert. In my mind, God will provide but we need to formulate a plan. As Pres. Reagan said, “Trust but verify.”
Switching topics, I’ve had a horrible case of Martha-ism lately, running around and doing things when I should be still in front of God. There is so much to do and the list keeps growing. As things are checked off, new things come to replace them. This is futile. My anxiety and need for control fuels my franticness. I can’t stop myself. I am addicted to this more than to TV. Maybe this is the sin of pride (i.e, my way is the best way). And it’s also related to trust (i.e., I need to take care of my needs because no one else will). And I may have hurt someone carelessly. Living is hard; we have no choice but to take up our cross and walk along the path until the work is finished. The choice is whether we will walk as slaves or as freed men, walk towards futility or walk towards a bright light. All of this hurricane that is my life currently is leading to a climax; I don’t know what though but I think it’s for a life transition which is for my good but may be painful in the process. What good thing comes without pain anyway?